so I went to see spiritual healer Julie Walker on Monday. she said some things. potentially life altering. i've been marinading on it and my thoughts have already begun to change, a lot of what she said i knew or suspected in my heart and she just confirmed it. other things did indeed shock my socks off. like, for example......drum roll please.....i have good business sense! i SHOULD BE IN SALES AND MARKETING. wha??????
no way. (emphasis on WWHUU-ay)but the most important thing she said-as soon as i walked into the room, pratically, was that i was in transition (i knew that, duh) but that in life you can't just keep saying "i'm in transition." you have to actually make the transition. so here i go, making transitions....pretty soon you won't recognize me. i might turn into a man or something. with blue hair and a nose ring, yeah....
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I LIKE the nose ring idea. that would be cute.
welcome to the julie walker experience! i'd suggest you keep "marinating" on the things she said. the experience can be eerie yet comforting. don't you love her loving delivery? so i'm dying to know... did she say, "no wheat", "no dairy", "no soy", "no bread" or "no sugar"? ;-) that way i'm prepared if me and gini ever get around that dinner party idea.
thanks gen!
She said no wheat which sadly means no bread. And no fried foods....now she said "I am not the food police"
and I believe her. I WILL eat cake and pie some day. But for the most part I am committed to not.......
she's not the food police. everytime she sees me out in public -- restaurants, cafes, she catches me eating something she's banned from my diet. turns out, she never, ever, ever says anything or even gives a wayward glance.
kari
I've been trying to find out anything about Julie Walker mainly because I am aware that my dad talks to her. I'm an FTM (female to male transsexual) who is begining my transition (starting legal, medically supported and regulated testosterone therapy). Apparently, according to my dad, she said that I will regret having surgery for a long time if I get it (which is a totally ambiguous statement anyway, like, what kind of surgery is she even talking about? And he also took it to mean hormones, but how much of this is hearing what he wants to hear?) Is she going off of the idea that transsexuals are obsessed with genital surgery (which I do not, and quite a lot of FTMs actually, do not want) in which case we are totally on the same page, or is she talking about any kind of surgery, such as chest reconstruction, which is something I am planning on getting, as soon as possible?
Whatever, this is totally irrelevant, the point is that she doesn't know me. She has never met me. She has never talked to me. The only thing she knows about me is from the lens of my father, who, mind you, she hasn't even met, they talk on the phone.
In this sense, what validity does she even have?
I feel completely violated that someone would talk about my body and tell members of my family things about me that I have not given them permission to even become involved in. It's also really disrespectful to be referred to as a gender that I do not identify as (using female pronouns which is apparently how she referred to me, even though my dad used male pronouns, etc.) She has no idea at all, how I identify, and does not have to right to define my gender identity, and the experiences I've had my entire life that make up this identity.
In my opinion, she is practicing junk science, and works the same way any "psychic" operates in order to recieve monetary gain. Her use of the Bahai faith as a means to that end disgusts me.
If you disagree with me, and I'm sure some of you will, and I'm sure some of you will say that my anger is fueled by my inability to accept what she says, by all means disagree, but at least listen to the way it makes someone who is affected by her "advice" makes me feel, and affects how my parents have been acting around me.
Maybe she has valid things to say, and maybe she can even figure out certain things about my father that are accurate, but I honestly in no way believe that what she says about me is accurate, ethical, or fair.
In a lot of ways, hearing this has helped me because it has made me realize that I know who I am and no one else can define that for me, or make me feel bad about the choices that I make. What do I care if someone who doesn't know me, hasn't met me, etc. says something that might indeed reflect her ideas about transsexuals in general? Plus, I can't find anything in the Bahai writings that says that there is anything wrong with transitioning, it only says something about consulting medical practitioners, which is what I'm doing (as well as a really good psychologist).
I would be interested in a response.
Peace, peace, peace.
Ian
I have very little time to respond b/c my access to internet these days is very limited...and part of me is disbelieving in the reality of this commentary but in the chance you are real, Ian, here is my real and as brief as possible, response:
I disagree with your opinion of course, as you may have guessed by my somewhat upbeat post to begin with....I happen to like Miss JW and believe in what she had to say for me and it's value. But like any person seeking out another person's 'professional' or 'paid' advice-it is useful for that person alone and no one else. It would be poor judgement for me to share with anyone in particular what was said to me for me about my relationships with others-also, OF course it could have been taken out of context or misrepresented or even misunderstood. That happens all the time. We are human afterall. We hear what we want-it's a natural human inclination- and to seek out the actual truth within and without ourselves can be often be painful and even elude us for years to come despite our efforts otherwise.
What is important to realize is you can never really know for sure about someone else until you have met that person and asked them yourself....even if you 'have it on good authority' I could mention all sorts of things in her defense, but it's unimportant.
I had a therapist once who was very concerned b/c I had not 'dealt' with the loss of my birth father and she recommended to 'deal' with it I should lift weights and have an arm wrestling contest with my adoptive dad. I was 8. I thought she was full of poop. When it gets right down to it, only we know what's right for us in developing who we are, and we all make mistakes along the way-and seek help from different sources, but that is sort of the point, right? I think without the mistakes the value and depth of who we become is less certifiable. It does feel pretty awful when we are going through something so raw and important to have anyone be dismissive of our struggles or 'know it all' about the solution. I've had people tell me, directly and through the mouths of others, how I should be, and some turned out to be right, some turned out to be wrong. But your strength grows through this. Your conviction grows through this.
And whether or not your impressions of what was said is true of that actual instant, the fact is someone somewhere out there MAY think those things and how does that affect you or make you feel, right? And are you angry really at someone you never met because it's easier than being angry at those closer to you or even yourself, or are you angry at the knowledge that with this decision there will always be a challenge in life? I don't have a solution to other people's ignorance or things that were said to people I have never even met. I only know how to face my reality and fight it with as much love as possible. And that may sound cheesy but it's what I do. You have to decide, if you haven't already, what you want your reality to be. Whether you want the words of strangers like me to hurt you or inpsire you. Whether you want to seek out the truth of this, or anything, and how far and how long are you willing to work toward being happy and loving despite the world around you
Cheers and love,
Odelia
note: I just missed my train!
Boo!
If Ms. Walker had spoken approvingly of the FTM surgery, would you, Ian, still think her a crackpot? If you know in your heart that she is incorrect about this, would such a "misdiagnosis" on her part constitute, to you, wide scale fraud or incompetence?
No one has a corner on the truth, not even Ms. Walker. And generally, it is not wise to attribute to malice what can honestly be attributed to ignorance. Moreover, right or wrong, only time will tell.
To see what the House of Justice has to say about transexuality - it's more positive than you might expect! http://bahai-library.com/uhj_transsexuality
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