random ramblings

i am free, therapist free, that is. big step because big changes commenced and are commencing. i am at the brink of a precipice, there is a sign to my right that says "The Rest of Your Life" with an arrow, and can you guess where it is pointing? what will i do with an extra $60 a month, i can think of a lotta things, lotta lottery tickets.......

we (abi and i) were on the phone for more than 2 hours last night, a record for me, and up well past my bedtime. we talked about many things, many things, boys, faith, future and probably food. i like talking about food. and then today i decided my $60 was better spent elsewhere so i walked into the room that has been a haven for tears and honesty for more than a year and said, no more! no longer....i am ready to move on and up and out.

wrote a poem yesterday. normally i share those things but this one's private. sealed stamp of approval from abi. but it got me remembering the days i used to perform spoken word and a thing abi said about blogging last night. my psychoanalysis of blogging (why do we do it? how honest are we? how honest are you?) is soon to come. i no longer perform my poetry for the same reason abi lately no longer blogs (i urged her to re-consider, but if i don't stand up, can i ask her to type out?)

i am going to get a couple anime flicks to watch. Princess M and Perfect Blue, they were good when i watched them years ago....will they resonate the same today?

i think only one person reads this. i don't hardly tell anyone about it and when i do, they usually forget in a week or two after i don't blog for awhile. i am comforted by that and yet am slowly considering getting the "word" out and trying to keep it out. i just like to write.
speaking of which, i will be freelancing for yet another couple of magazines this fall. soon i will be certifiably 'published' enough, and PAID. that will be fun. so bill, i am, in fact, writing these days. how about you?